March 24th, 2013

Maiden's Blush rose

Sunday so far

I got sleepy around 11:00 p.m. Saturday night.  I switched clothes from washer to dryer right before I went to sleep at midnight.  I woke at 3:00 a.m. and put my clean clothes in a laundry basket.  I had a belated midnight snack/early breakfast and eventually went back to sleep.  Mom woke me at 8:45 a.m. to see if I wanted to go to church.  Their church starts at 10:00 a.m., and I'm sure they would have wanted to get there early, because it was Palm Sunday.  I didn't have any clothes that were both Palm-Sunday-worthy and warm, which is one of the reasons I refused.  I went back to sleep and woke a little after 11:00 a.m., still groggy.

I was online for a while, then did my morning routine.  I sat under the sunlight-effect lamp for a while.  I remembered where Mom and I had been in listening to The Land of Stories, so I picked up with that and read along at the same time for a few tracks.  I was a little too restless for that and it's better listening on a CD player than the computer with the way the computer works for CDs, so I switched to Dr. Fell: The Boys of Fell and read that for a while.  I read through Pink: Dolorosa.

When I got up from that, I found that Dad had put dirty sheets on top of my clean laundry.  I was upset.  He didn't understand why I felt that I needed to wash my laundry again.  I can't do it today, because it's their laundry day, but I will do it.

I went outside for a little bit.  It was cold.  I took my pruning shears with me and had my leather gauntlets on, but I didn't end up pruning any of the roses.  The deer seem to be doing it for me.  It looks like that's what happened to 'Salet', since that's in a pot three feet off the ground.  The pot is right near the back door, so the deer are coming right up to the house.  I went out to the mahonia, which has prickly enough leaves that it doesn't seem to be getting eaten.  I went far into the back yard, to the winter honeysuckle.  Those plants only bloom for so long, so I'm trying to get out there to enjoy them while they last.  The pink sweet violet has several flowers open.

Despite the special light, having plenty to read, and trying to enjoy the early spring flowers, I am depressed.  We didn't even get that much snow this winter, and bad weather seems to contribute, so I'm not sure why I still feel this way.  I crash in December or early January.  This year it was early December.  I was hoping I'd feel better by now, because generally by April or so I'm feeling good.  It has been cold out, and I've been more-or-less broke for months.  I have been paying the bills I get regularly a month ahead of time, so there's that.  I felt a feeling of satisfaction from that when I started doing it, but I don't have that same feeling of satisfaction anymore.

I really don't know what else I can do to cheer myself up.
Maiden's Blush rose

Sunday -- somewhat later

I finished up an editing job.  I've gotten a good bit of editing done the last few days.

I saw that You Gotta Let It Out (yougottaletitout) had done more song analysis for early season two songs.  Reading those cheered me up.  Quite Contrary (calanthe-b/callie-quite-contrary) and So Thinky had done Glee posts, too, on "Guilty Pleasures."

Uly reviewed Josh Lanyon's novella Blood Red Butterfly on the AE "Gay Books -- What We're Reading" forum.  Uly said he didn't know anything about yaoi.  I knew Uly would have gotten the book from Kindle, but I wanted it without DRM, so I looked through Just Joshin posts to see if it had been published by other sources than Kindle.  One of the places it was available from was Smashwords, so I got it from there.  I've heard some about yaoi, but have not read mangas.  I've read some English-language Weiss Kreuz slash fic and some original fiction yaoi-inspired romances.  I read Boys' Love Manga: Essays on the Sexual Ambiguity and Cross-Cultural Fandom of the Genre.  That had a whole chapter on Weiss Kreuz, which delighted me.  I'll probably be able to tell yaoi influences in Josh's novella.  I'll post on that when I read it.

Later: I read Blood Red Butterfly.  There was an "Aya from Weiss Kreuz" reference.  I pictured Kai looking like Aya.  The cover of the novella shows bishonen, one with red hair.  It wasn't the writing style I was used to from Josh.  It wasn't yaoi.  It was different, though.