January 27th, 2013

Maiden's Blush rose

Sunday so far

I went to bed around 10 or 11 p.m. last night and slept until 9 a.m.  I don't know what was with that, but I was glad to get a good night's sleep.  I woke up feeling pretty good.  I got out of the house briefly, taking Mom to pick up her car at the local Firestone, where she'd gotten the oil changed.

Calanthe-b (Callie-quite-contrary on Tumblr) had put up her "Sadie Hawkins" episode reaction, and I read that.  Then I started reading back in her previous episode reactions.  I save them in Word.  I went through and labeled them by episode number and title.  I had them labeled by title for some, and by date and title for others.  The earliest reaction to an individual episode that I found was "Bad Reputation."

Cal puts in lots of asterisks and footnotes, and I can't count at a glance whether it's seven asterisks or eight, or eleven or twelve.  I read as a block anyway, not little by little.  I don't scroll down to footnotes and then back up, so it's a little confusing when I read the footnotes to try to think what they refer back to.  When I have a lot of time, I might bring the footnotes up and put them in parentheses so they're next to the bit they're referring to.  It would break the flow, but at least it would all be in one place for me.  That would be a lot of cutting and pasting.  Maybe over the summer.  (Added: Cal also refuses to name Finn and Rachel in some of her posts.  She called Finn "Lurch" for a while, and now calls him "the Oaf."  Sometimes she calls Rachel "Madam."  She loathes the characters.  According to a lot of the meta I read, they're supposed to be toxic.  I just go with the thought that Rachel is supposed to be annoying.  Even she herself said that she's annoying.  But there's definitely something about who deserves a name in there as far as Cal's concerned.)

Since the day Biyuti's blog disappeared for a little while (WordPress thought it was spam or something), I've been saving their Glee entries.  I've read all their entries, but a few months ago I started commenting on the Glee ones.  The Glee ones actually cover some of the same topics they talk about otherwise, like gender identity, racism and homophobia.  I feel more qualified to discuss a TV show than to talk about the topics directly.  Biyuti has confirmed for me some very good reasons why I'm not a feminist.  I'm pretty sure I have a fair amount of internalized sexism, but even when I was in my teens and around young lesbian feminists, I would say that I wasn't a feminist.  They weren't too thrilled with bisexuals, either, at least one, J.A., repeatedly saying that the only real women were lesbians.  She wasn't as rageful towards men in practice as she was in theory, and I had a crush on her for a while, but it pissed her off when I'd say, "But I like men."

Biyuti has become very idiosyncratic with what they capitalize.  Well, I know the rules of it.  All the letters in the names of white people are in lowercase.  All the letters of the names of Western countries are in lowercase.  For instance, it's "kurt" instead of Kurt, but it's Blaine with a capital B.  (I hope to God it stays Blaine with a capital B.  That depends on the Powers That Be of Glee.  Well, Biyuti may choose to keep the capitals for his name in any case.  At least there isn't any question about keeping the first letters in the actor's name capitalized.)  It's "america" instead of America.  I've seen various spellings and renderings of America depending on the people who are critiquing it.  Europe and European are in lowercase.  Canada is in lowercase, but I'm sure First Nations would be uppercase.

Biyuti is choosing what to center and prioritize, or at least that's how I take it.  If I did it that way, I'd capitalize P.'s name and put S.'s name all in lowercase, for instance.  I keep with the conventional way.  At this point, they're not capitalizing the first letters of sentences, either, or "I" when they're talking about themself.  They're putting together a book of old posts, and I'd offer to proof or edit, but I would want to change so many words in lowercase to have capital letters that I don't think I could deal.

I don't know some of the acronyms, either.  In IaoPoC, the PoC must be "People of Color."  My guess is that the I is "Indigenous."  If it's "and/or," I think it's something like the Ramapough Mountain Indians I talked about a while ago, and the earlier slur names that Albert Payson Terhune and others had for them.  I had totally forgotten after reading it decades previously that he used the n-word, and in a children's book.  I learned slurs by reading them in children's books.  Attitudes have changed for enough voters in this country that less than half were haters.  Things have changed since that book was written a century ago.  Biyuti linked to posts by fair-skinned Indigenous people, among others, when there were various discussions of light-skin privilege and PoC ancestry going on around a social justice section of the Internet.  The posts by Indigenous people were still up, last I looked, but some of the other posts have been taken down.

PaperMoon recommended books with a protagonist who was half-Japanese and half-Irish, saying that he knew what it was like to grow up being Asian in a white culture, in his case in Australia.  I marked them as ones I wanted to get.  They're mysteries that have the protagonist go into Korean-American culture.  PaperMoon was happy to see some decent fictional representation.  A lot of the books on the massively successful "Gay Books" forums and their predecessors on AfterElton are fiction, and every so often we talk about whether the representation is good, especially with the m/m romances.  Some of the women readers are more critical than the men, although there are those guys who criticize without having read any.  I like having a place to hear gay men's opinions on how they're represented.  I do my best to be polite to people who criticize without having read the books.

I haven't read that many m/m romances by male authors.  I've read a number of books by authors who identify as genderqueer, like James and the "omni-gendered" Mychael Black.  Some of the members of AfterElton believe that if an author is female-bodied, they're a woman.  I have tried to explain that that's not always the case.  Lesbian, bisexual, transgendered and genderqueer authors are relatively well-represented among authors of m/m romance.  Members of AE at least believe in lesbians.

This post will take the usual tags.  I still think it would be presumptuous for me to make a "race" tag, but there are times I think I could use it.

Later: I talked with A. for nearly two hours.  (A. is the reason I added the "friends" tag to this post, because he's someone I talk to on the phone rather than just online.)