January 11th, 2011

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AWZ Monday

Roman and Deniz together in one episode, and even having a couple of scenes together -- that's all that matters.  It was them worrying about Marian, but it was still them together.  Igor had several scenes, and rocked them.  Deniz and Marian actually talked, after Deniz got Marian out of jail; and Deniz talked to Jessica.

Steinkamp things -- Vanessa decided she'd had it and that she was going back to Boston.  Either she or her suitcase was run over at the end of the episode, and Simone was perhaps shocked a bit out of her absorption with finding Jenny at the expense of listening to anything Vanessa said.

I couldn't watch the Richard/Claudia scenes.  Max and Richard are sort of coming together again in their concern for Simone.

Roman had a scene where he asked Florian if he wanted to talk about his relationship with Frank.  Flo refused to discuss his romantic relationship or attempts thereof with his big brother.  Maybe Flo will have another talk with "Onkel" Deniz.

Definitely a must-see show for Igor's fans.


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from Kris' commenters

Kris did a post asking whether her readers gave up on series.  I said I'd sometimes stuck with series through twenty or so books, but that most got very repetitive after the first dozen or so.  I have given up on some.

Other commenters' answers fascinated me, though.  A couple of readers said they just read m/m romance now, so they'd given up on romance series they'd been following that were in other genres.  How interesting, I thought.  I read a lot of m/m romance, as those who have been following me here are well aware.  I still read m/f romance by authors I like.

I've read several lesbian romances, though I don't care for the often heavy-handed political views in some of the ones I've read.  For various reasons, a story in which women become completely emotionally enmeshed makes me uncomfortable.

I've read a couple of f/f romances, and seen the blurbs for quite a number more.  The ones I've run across often have at least one of the women being rescued from abuse.  No matter the orientation or gender of the protagonists, I find most books in which the cure for sexual abuse is all-powerful "sexual healing" consisting of having wild monkey sex unrealistic and unappealing.

I just don't find descriptions of abuse and trauma to the "heroine" the way I want to start a book.  I don't feel like someone in the midst of or the beginning of recovery from trauma is in a place to start a relationship that would be at all healthy.  You get the emotional enmeshment again, plus lots of crying and much exploration of emotions in painstaking detail.  I've read some non-fiction journalistic reporting about sexual abuse, for instance reporting on the scandals with the Catholic Church.  It was essentially that I was trying to understand the people's motives and reactions, and the events that occurred, as much as possible.  It's not something I'd read in fiction for pleasure.

There was a period of about six weeks in which all the stories I was proofing or line editing for Changeling were m/f/m menages or m/m/f menages (if people divide them up so finely).  After that I sought out some stories with menages from other publishers.  I like the ones in which the men are bisexual (and not related!) and comfortable with their sexuality, and the menage is well-balanced.  Sadly, menages written as well-balanced and appearing as though they would realistically lead to a long-term threeway relationship seem very rare to me.

After this long tangent, it sincerely does still puzzle me as to why straight (or I suppose bi, possibly, also) women would give up reading m/f romances.  I guess it's something along the lines of giving up something that no longer works for you, or that you always had problems with, when you find something that works much better for you.  After all, readers only have so much time, and there are so many books.  Certainly there are a lot of m/m romances out there, and more appearing all the time.

I know some gay romance authors didn't read straight romance novels in the first place, but came from slash fiction or just liked writing about relationships between men.  I don't suppose too many women readers came from backgrounds like mine, of first reading straight romance, then non-fiction on GLBT topics along with m/f romance, then adding gay fiction and erotica to their reading repertoire.  Gay romance seemed like a natural mix of my reading tastes.  As I've said before, I considered reading m/m romance to be just one more aspect of me being queer.  It was a good feeling to learn that many women like gay romance, not just me.  I especially like being able to share the reading experience of books I enjoy with gay men.  Being able to say, "Hey, you'll like this, too," back and forth with the guys is very appealing to me.

I'd love to get comments from women who were big fans of m/f romance and don't read it any more.  What do you feel your main reasons for giving it up were?  What works so well for you with m/m romance?  I just feel like I came from a different place than most readers of m/m romance, yet I have a lot of people who enjoy some of the same books that I do.  It's cool, but it's still somewhat mysterious to me.

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AWZ Tuesday

It turns out it was only Vanessa's suitcase that was run over, much to Simone and Richard's (and my) relief.  Simone focused on Vanessa for a while, giving her love.  It was nice to see Richard and Simone with Vanessa.

Rafael and Max stuff, which ended with Rafael hitting Max over the head with the butt of his pistol and shoving him in the trunk of a car.  I'm not all that worried for Max.  I'm sure he'll escape from Rafael's evil plot of vengeance sooner or later, probably later.

Tom is happy to have his uncle's ashes.  He even drew a happy face on the urn.  The Bergmann sisters, meanwhile, are completely freaked out about having human ashes in their flat.  Papa Reichenbach sent a flunky to retrieve Uncle Erhardt(?)'s ashes, but Tom stood in front of the urn to hide it.  It's all very goofy, but I love Tom and am happy he's getting some plot.

Marian's hooker helped Marian in the bar for a while.  That makes three jobs she has.  It was nice to see Marian actually working at the bar he owns, rather than spending all his money on prostitutes and drinking all the liquor in the bar himself.

There was a little with Roman and Deniz, and a scene with Deniz and Marian.  Deniz is hugely relieved that Marian seems to be working his way back to semi-sanity.  Igor is still rocking his scenes.

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Tuesday real life

Not much happened.  I hadn't slept at all Monday night, so I slept well into the afternoon today.  I ran a quick errand, but snow had started falling on my way there, so I returned home pretty quickly.  I remembered how I was fishtailing around the roads in [borough] in one December snowstorm, and how I got so lost when I turned early to try to evade a traffic mess.  I didn't want a repeat of that day.

I'm totally broke again, but at least I used the majority of the money I had for paying bills.  I don't know.  I got another bill for physical therapy, with the past due amount on it, and I'm very anxious to pay that off completely.  The billing person in the orthopedist's office had said that as long as I paid $50 a month or so on it, I'd be okay, but I definitely don't want to have past due bills.  I also really want to pay off my credit card in full.  It will be a big relief to do that.

Mom came home at her usual time, but was in a wretched mood because her boss had given them a speech about how he expected them all to be in to work tomorrow, bad weather or not.  The weatherpeople only got as specific as 4 to 8" of snow.  There's been a lot of yelling and crankiness from Mom tonight, and it just makes me that much more eager to get the money together to move out.  Someone in real life told me that during Mom's knee replacement recovery, I'd be her "slave," and an online friend said that nursing her mother through two knee replacements had been hideous.

The professional organizer called at some point in the morning to cancel because she had a lot going on with her day job of occupational therapy.  We rescheduled for tomorrow, weather permitting.  I had hoped to get some done myself between her visits, but that's not really happening.  I guess having a professional there to break it down for me and encourage me is what's helping me actually do it.  We've certainly recycled a lot of old papers and magazines.  You can't tell it too much by looking at my room, which is discouraging, but we've taken a considerable amount of junk out of it.

I've taken on a lot of editing for the next few weeks, but I should be okay.  They're all different projects, so I can switch from one to another as I need a break from one.  Only a couple of them are at the proofreading/line edits stage.  More are in the general editing stage.  There was the one I've been really challenged by that the author describes as thriller with horror elements.  He hadn't given me that description beforehand.  I was told that the horror parts of it weren't gratuitous.  That was about it.  I took it as being a horror novel, and it's much easier for me to think of it that way.

I don't read horror.  Well, I read the first few of Anne Rice's Vampire Chronicles, but I don't think they're exactly classic horror.  I liked the history element to them, and the rich descriptions.  After the first couple, they seemed to be mostly rich descriptions and characters thinking deeply about their states of existence, with not much plot actually happening.  But in general, horror is not my thing at all.

I read romance.  Sometimes I just want light and fluffy romance, and I do have a preference for humor, if it's done well, in a romance story.  I used to read a lot of fantasy and "soft" science fiction, like with telepaths and talking animal companions and such.  I still read some.  I read way more than my share of comic books in my day, and even got back into it somewhat when the first X-Men movie came out.  Generally I don't want the characters tortured and suffering extreme anguish during a book.  They can have their share of issues and challenges, but not so much that it's unrealistic that they can function in the world.

So I need to get myself in the frame of mind of editing all different kinds of fiction, not just all different kinds of erotic romance.  I guess it will be good for me to have that kind of experience.  It should keep me pretty busy and keep me challenged, anyway.